Hurt

Sometimes people say, when people are doing bad thing to you, the nicest thing is to just do good to them. But somehow I cannot agree with the statement. Not all people have a big heart to easily and forgot. They may be able to forgot it but the scars will remain. And to be nice to the people who hurt them, will just make them suffer even more.

As for me, the nicest thing to do, for my own good, is just go away. Detach myself from the source of bitterness of the feeling and create my own safe space. I can be bother of living in a toxic environment where people can do bad things to me and I act like I don't care and just be nice to them.

I know, it is good to be nice to people even though they hurt so much, but is it peaceful for you? Is it the way that you want; suppressing your own feeling, at the end, you are the one who suffer the most? If you said that you don't mind it as long as people happy and live their live as usual, but is it really make your heart calm?

I did not say that, you have to pay for the bad things they did to you. No. I just say that, if you are the only one trying to fix things up, at the end of the day, you are the one who will suffer with your own feeling. The person might have different feeling and emotion. They may not even feel any remorse of doing that. It is not their problem and that is something you cannot control. If they don't feel anything after they hurt you so much, it is their right. If they don't even realize that they had hurt you, it is their right.

But, how about you? You may have a fragile heart because something in the past is triggering you. Only you understand how much your capacity in facing that kind of situation. If you think that situation exceed your emotional stability, it is your right to walk away. Rather than keep yourself to feel hurt again, moving away may be the best solution. After all, you are growing up. People will walk away in their own pathway. Nothing is ever promise to keep you attach. 

You only have yourself.