Hai Blog,
It has been a long time since I didn't write anything here. I don't know whether it is a good indicator or not but I tend to write more when I have so many unsaid things in my mind that I just need to spill and ventilate it out somewhere.
Maybe I'm just being occupied with some works that I'm just trying to survive. To be honest, this week has been a hectic week for me. Working from home, with multiple jobs to do, I would say that I'm changing into someone else now, haha hopefully in a good way. Every day is a working day for me. With a laptop and bed in one room, I am sure doesn't have life or social interaction, except with my parents.
I think I am already at the phase that I don't care much about other people. All focus is on me. Since no one is taking care of me, so I have to take of myself and love myself more. Maybe it just the stage of maturity (or aging lol).
Just trying to keep the circle smaller, appreciate the significant people that support my personal growth. I don't know. Maybe sounds a bit selfish there but knowing that at the end of the day, you have to face it alone, nothing is more important than taking good care of me.
I am attached to something that I think is heavy for me now and I don't know how to say that I want to have a break. I am no longer the same person I am before and please don't expect me to be the nice girl. I don't know. The rebel side of me is showing and I know it is not good.
Indeed, the hardest battle is against ourselves.
