The day before I received my final result for my undergraduate degree, some personal project just popped up into my mind. I want to start writing again. There are so many things I have been thinking that I am not able to express to people but I am able to express through my writings. So, I set up a blog. I have owned two blogs before. The first one I set up right after my Form 5 where blog is a ‘thing’ at that time. Like tiktok nowadays, but during my time, blogging is something that teenagers or youth will set up, as one of their social media. Instagram and Facebook came sooner after that and by having a blog, actually is a medium for me and my high school friends to connect and update each other by blogwalking. However, it started to slow down when people are slowly moving on to other updated social media which is more user friendly.
The reason why I don’t want to just continue from my previous blogs is because the old blog represents me in different ways. The first blog is more on my teenage self, the second blog is my self-recovery and this upcoming blog is to portray my mature self.
I am not keen to write on facebook again nowadays because I personally feel that my facebook friends are kind of mixed up now. I mean, the friends I am engaged with. Well, having different generations of friends, sometimes keeps me aware of my writing. Different people have perception. Writers write their opinion but other people may perceive differently. And social media nowadays is very scary, people may simply jump into conclusion and you will never know what they will understand from your writings. Indeed, it is our right to write and it is beyond our control to manage how people think, but I am the person who will easily get overwhelmed over recognition or comments; even though it is for improvement. Haha I don’t know what moves me to be super sensitive.
So, I think for my own well-being, I prefer to write in a place of non-judgemental. Not that I don’t like criticism but writing is my way of coping, to ventilate my feelings and a safe space to express.
And now, here I am, writing again, in hope for re-discovering myself and appreciating those who I met along my journey. Like an online journal for me, this place is somewhere you can find me and read my thoughts. Or maybe, once I have gone in this world, at least the person who left can remember me through my words.
Salam,
Amal
Ps: Excuse my grammar. I am not a pro in English. Accept the way I am. Ewahh. This blog will mix English and Malay content. But I won’t mix the language in one post. Oh ya, I will also include my unposted writing, where I just keep it in my notes, so there will be many backdated stories as well. Stay tuned!
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